Have been in Chitown for the summer, fearing for my life. Watched closely by the mob, so I couldn’t blog.

No seriously, I couldn’t think of any better excuses. I prefer apology, so I proffer apology. On with life.

I have a deep unsettling fear as a writer. Particularly, when thinking of writing many types of fiction and non-fiction. So darn much has been written. So much ground has been covered, so much research laid on exhibit for the layman, so many stories told. Is there really anything left? Not that there’s nothing left to write, but how can I possibly write something new, something fresh? I suspect that anytime someone manages to, they’ll be a hit because people will sense that they haven’t read anything like it before. I suspect that is no small part of the success of the Harry Potter series. Yes, magic had been done many times over, but never quite like that. And certainly not with a bunch of teenagers at a school, and certainly not in that type of contemporary world. It was rather more unique than many books on the market and thus quickly became well loved. (Surely there are other reasons for its success — sheer originality wouldn’t be quite sufficient, I think, but so many books suffer from a deflated originality that is at best a sort of stolen creativity.) (Also, c.f. Lord of the Rings for originality in genre.)

(Which reminds me — go read “Jonathan Strange and Mr. Norrell” by Susanna Clarke.  I’ve written a review that could give you a much fairer evaluation, but for now let’s call it a savoury stylistic cross between Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings. Maybe with a touch of Jane Austen thrown in.)

So where are the new stories? I do feel that some succesful authors simply pick and choose from different pre-existent elements in a genre and combine them in a fluent enough manner that the resultant work is at least enjoyable and worthwhile. In one sense I think the joy that both writers/readers of these books get from their creation/reading (consumption?) is something akin to the joy of numbers some people get in running numbers through an equation or playing with variables in a spreadsheet. It’s all the same stuff, just plug in a few numbers and see how it all shifts. Change a character or two, move this theme from here to there, try an old gimmick on for size, and see what comes out! I’m more critical of this formula in paperback authors who make a career by pumping out essentially one book over and over. The essence of the book is quite literally (and literarily [too much fun with words]) the same, with character names changed, etc.  It’s the same book dozens of times over but with different clothing. It’s an unfortunate truth of the popular market that we simply *DO* judge a book by it’s cover, though, so until we read it we think it must surely be something different. And something must be said too for the writer’s skill in duping enough readers into enjoying the same story over and over enough times to make a career out of it. Got to give them credit for that. They’re convincing.

But. With such clear wariness of factory-production in the arts, I worry about this issue of originality. What if I write someone else’s book, and all that has changed is the name of the author? This is deeply unsettling. I wonder how many fledgling architects have been told to build beside the monuments of history. But there are few things older in human history and closer to the heart of the human spirit than the telling of stories. This is not the difficulty of writing new equations, discovering new axioms, developing new theories.  In such things there is much yet unknown and waiting to be discovered. This is not rocket science; this is much less clear. In this, it is not the unknown waiting to be discovered but that which is within every man, woman, and child, waiting to be drawn out. And thus in a sense every old, tired story is re-inventing the wheel, re-discovering gravity, re-building the arch.

I recently read an article in a writing magazine (the citation escapes me, please forgive) that sums it all up quite nicely. It describes the four levels of plagiarism a writer may inhabit:

LEVEL 1: This plagiarist is essentially a literary purse-snatcher. There’s not an ounce of finesse or remorse in the way he steals someone’s work. He’s the guy who photocopies an entire novel, writes his name over the author’s with a marker, and resubmits it to the publisher because it’s just the kind of book they like to put out.
LEVEL 2: Like the Level 1 plagiarist, this idea thief greedily helps himself to the work of others. He’s not fully committed, though. While he can’t develop an idea of his own, he’s confident he can improve upon existing text. He may even see his plagiarism as a service.
LEVEL 3: Most of the scandals we hear about involve this group. The plagiarist may indeed be writing a story of his own, but he doesn’t hesitate to borrow an element from an existing work – a plot twist, a distinctive line of dialogue, a white whale named Moby, and so on.
LEVEL 4: Purity. The Level 4 “plagiarist” can’t accurately be labeled as such. The writer first memorizes every creative work published so he knows what to avoid. He then writes his novel in an entirely invented language and rents an orangutan to rearrange the pages. There are no characters and there’s no story. If you could read it aloud, which is impossible, it would sound like 372 pages of a ceiling fan operating. Finally, when the manuscript is incorruptibly ready, when it has no resemblance to anything written by anyone, anywhere, the author burns it just to be safe.

In the end I suppose I could enjoy a little more peace of mind if I simply addopted the Piccasan proverb: “Good artists copy; great artists steal.”

Guess who’s in Boston?

Okay, technically I’m staying in a suburb just outside.  But here I am, back in America, feeling weird about it but not weird enough. I commented yesterday to the friend I’m staying with that part of the weirdness is not feeling *completely* weird. It feels strange to be back, but it also feels quite normal. As in, almost too normal. So normal but off. Which makes it extra weird.

It makes sense that it would feel normal. After all, I’ve been in the US for 20+ years and in Edinburgh for only nine months.  Still, the strength of differences in the experience demand the adjustments that now must be unmade.  I think another piece of the “too normal” is the similarities.  Edinburgh and the UK are a halfway house, maybe. If I had been to China for a year, coming back might feel much weirder and not too normal at all.  I might know how to deal with that in a more straightforward manner.  But this mixed familiarity… it will be awhile I’m sure before things begin to sink in much, and I’m sure I’ll begin to feel strangest when I spend time in downtown Chicago or Boston again.  For now I’m just chillin in a good old American suburb and getting reaquainted to the smell and taste of Bostonian air.

Keep the kettle on; I’ll be in Chicago next week.

Running out of time, when it comes down to it.

I’ve come to the next transitional phase, I think.  Only a few days left until I fly out of Edinburgh for Boston. A few days there and then on to Chicago for the summer. I’m looking forward to my few days in Boston and hope I get to see and spend time with as many friends are around. The main reason for my multi-day layover is to sort through some things that are in storage, pack out whatever I need for the summer, and leave the rest for when I come back in the fall. I’ll be staying with a good friend, which I’m certainly thankful for.  After those few days I head out and leave for Chicago.

A few major things are running through my mind, and I’m sure it will take me weeks or months to sort out mentally. Reflections from Edinburgh, and reflections on Edinburgh; the few days I’ll get in Boston, and my many friends who just graduated in Boston; the summer in Chicago, and the people and things that will be attached; a return to Boston in the fall for a last year of study.  Probably these things will be a running topic in my blog in the coming months.

When I can, I’ll write some more things about events from this year, as a way of remembering. For example, I haven’t even talked much about my spring break yet! I’ll have far too many pictures up on flickr from my trip, some of which are up already. (flickr.com/sthorwall)

For now I’m beginning the chore of cleaning, packing, and moving out of my flat. It’s going to be a bit of a bummer to leave so much behind – kitchenware, for example, can’t all be packed into a suitcase or two! – but hopefully I can ship a couple things home and take the rest back with room to spare.

In the last week or two I’ve been noticing more and more the things that I’ll miss from Edinburgh.  I’m excited to be going home, and at the same time I know that it will be hard to leave here, and I’ll want to come back.  I hope I have the chance to, someday.  Many times I’ve thought of Edinburgh or the UK at large as a place I’d love to live – but I think I’d need to bring all my family and friends with me, and maybe a few other things from America as well. Like Chicago pizza, or Boston sports, or good coffee that doesn’t cost an arm and a leg, or even (I’ll never forgive myself for saying this) a Walmart.  I would probably kill for a Taco Bell. Anyway, many of those things I could get along with; I’ve always been a fan of tea, so I’ve simply upped my intake to replace the depleted coffee consumption. But the people would be a must.

Returning home soon, and there will be a new set of things to do and take care of. A new type, probably, and I’ll be using some of the things I’ve learned this year.  Beginning to equip some of the tools I’ve gathered in the past year in my old environment, back home.   For now, the year is done, but I’m not quite back home just yet. The Field of Cormallen, where we celebrate the past, present, and future.

As you may be aware, Sri Lanka’s twenty-five year civil war is officially declared to have ended on May the 18th.  This is beautiful news, and worth cheering.  Worth writing home about.

I play chess on SchemingMind.com, a fantastic site with a great little community.  As well as playing games on the site, I’m relatively active in the forums. There’s one thread titled “Interesting News from around the World,” so I shared the word on Sri Lanka.  A friend of mine on the site expressed his usual dose of cynicism: That’s all well and good, he seemed to say, but “not a big deal in Sri Lanka, as far as [the] world goes on.” There are countless other wars going on, and more will break out. “Wars are a part of this world because we, people, cannot live together in peace. We are NASTY.”  Here I write for my chess friend and for any others who share these sentiments that humanity has as little hope as goodness within, who make the choice to magnify the deeds of our demons rather than the perseverance of our saints. There’s a little of both in most of us, and our focus in life helps us choose which one to let out.  For you:

On politics and war, I suspect where there’s one there will always be the other — and as human societies on a large scale will always have government and government will always have politics, I fear we may be doomed always to have war. But:

It’s not every day that a two-and-a-half decade civil war that tears a country apart from within comes to an end. My friend Prashan was born into the war in Sri Lanka and has lived there his whole life. He has made that war his life, his career — not to fight, but to promote peace, to promote unity, to promote love. He meets with government leaders, he meets with policy makers, he meets with leaders in the churches and temples, he meets with Sinhalese and Tamil youth across the nation and brings them together under one roof to discuss their differences and their common humanity. He reaches out, and he unifies. And while the end of the Sri Lankan war may not be “a big deal” in the face of worldwide civil strife and military unrest, it’s a big deal to him.

Sri Lanka has been considered one of the most politically unstable countries in the world. It has been called a false democracy, a failed state, and a ruptured nation. But the war is over now, the long journey of reparation and reconciliation can begin.

The truth is that many people on this planet are born into war and many will die in war. Prashan was born into it and has fought tooth and nail to ensure that as few of his countrymen as possible die in it. Now he is fighting just as hard to ensure a lasting peace and a true unity in the country. There is much work yet, but major strides have been made. It is for Prashan a great triumph, and we celebrate with him. There may always be war, but so long as we can see a path to peace, we can hope, and we can exhibit the love and respect for our fellow human beings and for our neighbor that make a better world possible. We can write stories and news articles about the possibilities and the triumphant realities – few though they may be – rather than focus only on the negativity and despair. The world may go on, oblivious to the pocket of Sri Lanka that is finally solving its major trials. But for my friend and others in Sri Lanka, the world is now changed. Refreshed. Redeemed. New meaning and new possibilities.

Worldwide war may continue, but maybe, just maybe, Prashan may be allowed to dance in the streets for a day.

I’d like to spend this post writing in conjunction with my last post, or to be more precise, with the comments it received.  Thanks to all who commented.

KT: I want that horse. We’d make a great and terrible pair, me with my shining claymore and he with his nightmare eyes.  (You passed up an opportunity to pun on “night-mare” by the way. I’m disappointed and grateful at the same time.)

Elisabeth: That’s just an awesome story.  I kind of want to try the former ravioli.

Tai: Frankly one of the best dreams I’ve ever heard.  Methinks we should adapt it into a short story or novelette. I’m sure you could do that on your own, but I’d love to be part of the project.  : )

Kara: seems like a pretty normal dream to me, apart from the fact that Jack Black is the man of your dreams.  *rofl*  Intriguing, though, how the whole dream is from a sort of camera-and-film perspective, and how — significantly — you tell the dream in the second person. I like that.

FUZZY NOODLE PIE

~1 lb. noodles
~1 medium-sized ball of edible knitting yarn
~2 dozen eggs, beaten
~1 qt. heavy cream
~2 cups sugar
~1/4 lb. butter
~2 tbsp. vanilla
~1 tsp. salt
~1/4 cups citron or candied fruit
~1/8 cups candied felt
dash of cinnamon (or to taste)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.  Cook noodles in boiling water approx. six minutes.  Drain, leaving small amount of water.  Add sugar and butter to noodles and mix until butter melts.  Cool noodle mixture, then add remaining ingredients.  Bake in two 9×13 inch pans for one hour (60 minutes) or until done.

If you prefer your fuzzy noodle pie extra fuzzy, you can take pictures of it with an out-of-focus camera or further apply multi-valued set theory to the measurements.